perihal api yang membakar jiwe.....

currently baru abis makan nasi goreng pataya, alhamdulillah.. sehari suntuk xjumpe nasik...

then ???

as usual.. im gonna treat this blog to voice out anything in my life, omg!!! brani betul ko...

1st of all thnx to dr.azman sbb arrange ktorg p tanah merah + rantau panjang utk tgk lembu pastu singgah tpt shoping.. satu hari ni asik main hujan aje.. klau demam lg xtau la kali ni kne brape lame???

then, thnx to my cool daddy sbb bg peluang utk shopping sendri mencari sang kure2x utk ganti yg lame pny.. pastu jumpe mende lain plak.. jmpe bantal moo moo dgn bantal giffy the the giraffe, hajat ny nk letak dalam shiro.. xlupe, selimut biru yg brbunge-bunge telah mencuri pandangan dan duit daddy ku, huhu.. =)  then, thnx to cik fiza, cik fifah and en. khir sbb join jalan2x meredah hujan utk ber-shopping..

*bile la nk open story api berapi nih kn?? sabaq naa.. api itu masih mmbare lg nih.. xtau nk start lagu mana nih??

k, hari ni ak kecewa dgn sikap sendri sbenar ny.. api yg membara disangka buleh dikawal tidak dpt dikawal.. kemarahan membuak-buak membuat orang yg bersalah menerime percikan api yg sgt marak nih.. sorry but not sorry, klau dh salah ttp salah.. ko nak benci ak, benci la.. bukan ny ak boleh tahan ko klau nk benci ak pon.. begitu juge sebalik ny.. so kite dalam win-win situation.. ape ko nk kate, kate la.. nk report kat parent,  report la.. yg bersalah tetap bersalah.. ak cube utk kawal tp xbuleh.. ak dlm usaha mengurangkan utk menyumpah org.. xpe, u asked for it and you will have it, nasib korang la..

klau korg nak menegakkan keadilan atas kesalahn korg tu cube la, tiade jaminan utk korg mahu pun ak.. nk ak tgk 'red carpet' berdarah.. meh kite tgk darah siape yg akan tumpah, darah ko ke darah ak.. klau cakap bahasa melayu pn xreti lg, ko nk pkai bahase ape?? ak pn xphm, mcm mane korg buleh tnjk muke xbersalah korg depan ak.. ko xde kat tmpt ak, jd ko xtau situasi td mcm mane.. n ak xbrade dtempat ko tp ape yg ak tau ko ttp bersalah.. ak tau ak bkn tuhan yg menetukan kesalahan seseorang.. Allah dh bg akal, gune la, manfaat kn.. klau Allah tarik balik baru padan muke.. susah juge klau dh xde market dlm klas.. kalau ko anak dato' sekali pun, duit melimpah-limpah, ingat la mase itu emas, tp emas xbuleh membeli mase..

pk la sendri, xkn xbuleh kot.. klau orang lain buleh korban kn sesuatu utk kepentingan dan kesejahteraan bersama, xkn ko xbuleh.. rase ny mcm xbuleh kot setelah ape yg ak dh nmpk.. ok, klau xbuleh ko hidop la sorang2x.. buat assignment sendri, buat report sendri, buat presentation sendri, buat soalan test sendri, jawab sendri, tanda kertas jawapan sendri, bg gred utk diri sendri, buat konvokesyen sendri, celebrate sendri, hidup sendri, mati sendri, tanam diri sendiri, bace talkin utk diri sendri.. boleh x?? buat la ape ko nk buat..

betul la kot teori yg ak prnh pk dulu2x.. teori ni ak nk simpan dalam hati ak yg hitam, kering, lg berapi nih.. nobody perfect but practice make perfect.. ak sedar ak xsecemerlang kamoo, ak cube nk puas kn hati orang lain.. nk jage hati orang lain.. memberi dan teros memberi tanpe dihargai malah dicaci.. huish, wth!! tp mcm mane yek korang nih?? huish, biarlah berhenti sampai sini hendak ny..siape la ak nk tegur korang kn... hidup sendri pun di awang-awangan... omg!!! ape ak merepek nih.. smpai bile pn x abis..

k la, korang nk buat ape ikut suke korang la..  klau ak buat salah pun ak akan dibenci.. masing2x dh tau kesan atas tindakan yg korang buat.. pandai2x la menilai sendri.. mgkn ape yg ak predict ni salah same skali.. sbb ak kn xcemerlang.... kmungkinan ak utk membuat jangkaan dan andaian itu sngt tinggi.. xpe, ak akan sentiase cube memperbaiki diri sendri.. klau ak buat salah tegor je.. tp klau xnk xpe, mgkn xde effect ape2x kat korang.. tp ak akan tros menggile klau perkare ni berulang.. bukan skali dua.. tgk!! ak dh membebel mcm dr. aziz pulak.. esk nk ngadap dy nih?! mate dh mcm pkai google dh.. ngantok gile, brape lame dok atas bas..


smoge Allah tabah kn hati ak utk meneroskan kehidupan ak wpun  di planet ak sendri..

2011 just arrived....

slm, 2011 just arrived.. perhap it can make me shining in the dark night, hopefully..

there a lots thung happen in my life, same as you guys.. and we have face it although need ti turnin upside down.. huhhu, what a long 2010.. but life must go on.. with a bunch of opportunity, i try to grab it as much as i can..

syukur i just safely join 2011.. thnx to my family xpecially my daddy cool my mom who support me although im not really shining in the sky compared to the others.. thnx for spent your money and time for me, i will try to have my best.. thnx again.. to my siblings, thnx for supporting for what im doing in crafting..

to my exschoolmate and classmate, really miss u!! hope we can meet again.. you give me the 'colourful life' and i enjoy it..

thnx to my bro n sis in animal planet for keep supporting me.. a long2 ago i have mentioned to leave animal planet a.s.a.p but i cant make it.. some of the reason is from u all.. thnx for accept me warmly to your planet.. looking forward for our glory.. wish me alots of  luck!

to myself, keep on going, keep on climbing.. everybody is standing behind you.. dont let them down.. express yourself, make something good for your own sake.. 'every cloud have their silver lining'.. so, all the best for mylife..

thats all for my new year 'speech', hahaha.. how come?! but this is me.. so i ended this n3 by this song that motivated me through my study year..

thanx and salam! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

harap mak lembut hati...

huhhhuuuuuu, slm 1 malaysia..

2 jam yg lepas baru siap kan ummu pny hp pouch, berpinar mate dbuat ny.. ummu is my exclassmate merangkap ahli geng panda.. geng mase bt dipl. dlu2x.. harap ny dy suke ;p sminggu yg lepas dh siap kan cik hazami pny 5 id holder... cik hazami pn ahli geng panda, hahahaha... lps bli id strap pastu boleh pos, nk pos pn nk kne pkai duit.. huhhu, agak sesak la juge, almaklum cuti2x nih duit blanje xmasuk.. org lain mungkin ade balance duit scholarship, tp ak x amik scholarship @ pinjaman.. xbest langsung, xbuleh nk bergerak langsung.. jadi ny dok umah je la siap kn order, klau kluar pn p blik umah 1 lg xpn p cari material.. sabar je la, slow2x yek.. insyaAllah ade rezki nnt ade duit lebih.. insyaAllah...

esk nk kluar, klau ade bajet.. lame gak x drive, since sampai dari tganu 2 minggu lepas xdrive langsung.. camne nk balik nnt.. mesti kekok giler lg skali.. dah la minyak naik harge, huhhu.. kne r ikat perot klau nk bw cik myvi jalan.. cik myvi pn nk bawak minum nnt.. bajet2x la nnt... tgk la! skarang ni fokus on next mission..

td dh ayat mak nk bli acrylic, harap ny dpt r.. nk siap kn cik shima pny order.. cik shima ni kwn skola, geng lepak kat seremban hujung minggu odw nk blik shah alam.. ala, smentare nk tggu bas @ tren.. rmh dy dekat2x aje, so dy la teman ktorg smentare bas smpai.. dy ade bg draft pict utk bt beg.. one of suju's member.. tp xpe, klau bab tekap-menekap nih ak memang terer.. klau nk lukis ntah jd ape, dkat 2 thn kot xmelukis secare serius.. bende klau xpraktis alamat ny nnt jd cekodok laaaa... xpe, beg dh siap, drawing dh draft atas beg., tggl nk warne.. huhhu, harap esk line clear..

k, doa kan esk line clear.. slm n chow!

market dh ade, tp mase xde...

huish, mcm mane nih.. final exam just around the corner... physiology, anatomy, nutrition, breeding dll.. wpn dh 2nd year, tp hati masih berbelah bagi... sampai ble nih nk mcm nih..mane buleh let go utk mende yg blom tentu menjamin mase depan ak.. insyaAllah masih ade harapan utk ak survive lg..

tp kn, lepas pegang mende tu mmg x pk mende lain dh..mcm ak bg tau sblm nih.. bile dh pegang mkn pn buleh skip.. uit, jgn slh sangke yek.. ni semue pasal ke'chentaan' ak utk ber'crafting'... sgt best klau dpt buat sesuatu master piece tu.. lg2x klau utk member.. bile dy post kat fb, sgt la berbunge jiwe nih.. wa rowk, rowk juge... tp dlm hati ade taman permainan..hehehehe...

"ya Allah tetapkan lah hati aku nih... ak pn nk berjaye mcm kwn2x yg lain.." insyaAllah...

kpd kwn2x animal planet, all d best for your 3rd semester final exam!! xlupe geng panda mase kat kolej, may Allah bless us!! kpd sesaper yg nk amek exam @ sdg exam, all d best ya!! hope we will share the stage.. insyaAllah...

ni yg biase terjadi...

k, slm n adios! all d best ya...