mommy replied for my text...

a short conversation by sms between me and my mommy....


adib                 : dear mom, i can't stop thinking about crafting... APTB... =)
                           *that's mean i don't have any feels to have any revision for tomorrow paper..

mommy           : Try your best" insya'allah... if U focus..
                           *did she wish for my crafting or my final paper???

may Allah bless me... amiin..

menjalani hidup yg dibayangi beribu alasan ...

i hate to be here

transformation take over, as usual.....

welcome to shah alam my dear!! it is the moment im waiting for...

i've plan so much thing to be done as i arrive here.. i want to this and that.. anything that i cant have while im at trengganu.. trengganu best but most of the time i feel bad and such having a terrible disaster.. i've spent most of my time not in shah alam.. study here and there let me spent my time away from shah alam and away from my family.. so, lets have fun!!! *actually need to study to have my final exam paper fro this semester starting @ 26th april...

1st thing after arrived KL, i have my transit session at another house beside my house at shah alam.. throw away unwanted thing brought from trengganu.. omg, just like removing to a new house.. btw, its ok.. i really wanted to reducing some other thing in my hostel.. huh, thnx to cool daddy who get to tganu and drive me as usual.. beside that he need to see my sis teacher at her school.. hehehehe, as usual as a school student mesti ade session nih...

k, if i turn back to shah alam as usual i really wanted to see my friend although only for a few second.. hahaha, so ridiculous 'for a few second'???!!! but until today i only met ummu naurah for only two hours.. but we have chatting so much thing.. huhhu, long time no see, although i only knew her when i have my diploma study.. driving in shah alam really testmy driving skill.. tooooo much treller, lorries, cars, motorbike, wth, semeny mcm semut yg ramai... but before i met her, i singgah speedy shop where i have my original cd as usual.. and i've met big bang 4th mini album.. korean pop singer that i like most!!and i bought two, one for me and one for zarith my classmate.. this is what i love shah alam sooo much.. most of thing that i wanted to have i can found it easily..


then, i have my routine ritual.. hahahaha, sounds weird.... actually i've my hair cut session.. i dont know when i manage to have this kind of routine??? but usualy i'll have this before i need to facing off my examination.. cik hazami pun pelik... during school i only need to have this ritual once a year but when have my diploma and degree study i need to have 2 times... why, i need to have final examination for every 6 month.. omg, ape yg tggl utk dpotong?? btw i only have it when i have extra time and only have it at my favourite hair salon, and trengganu cant give me that thing.. so i've it only when i turn back to shah alam.. during i've it yesterday, there is a untie have a chat with me.. asking where i study and i just reply 'trengganu'.. she show weird face.. hahaha... and suddenly she ask me if i have a boyfriend.. omg, i dont know her maa.. so i just smile and said i dont have any.. and she said, never trust boy easily.. hahahah, an aunty said to me like that.. thanks aunty, i'll keep it in my mind..

currently im not at my lovely shah alam.. just be around slangor.. having my time with my family.. although i need to face my examination just in some days.. wth, i hate that.. i,ve a crush with that planet.. it is not impossible thing that they also have a crushed with me.. i need to face it, let bygone be bygone.. forgetting is not easy as forgiving.. i always keep it in my mind and my heart..

keep avoiding might be the best way for us..

suddenly feel happy... from what?? i dont know..

what i just wanted to say that sometime we doesn't know that peoples are hating us although we treat them nicely.. sometime, being nice to them doesn't give us any benefit as much as we think.. why?? i think that, not all people know that u try to be nice to them.. they might think that u want publicity or even there are something that u hiding behind them.. lately im turning more cruelly like never before..

try to correct me if im wrong.. as usual, you always feel that u right miss dib, but in real thing u are totally wrong.. lacking this and that just make u become idiot person to the others.. i just want to enjoy my own life.. but it seem like just having nice dream.. the dream that cant be true.. huish... perhaps, something good will come to me..

life with regretting the life is terrible.. did i keep thinking how to make myself and people around me happy together?? if yes, how come i feel that peoples are keep hating me... plz help me if u can..  so i make a decision to keep avoiding you or might be you all or slightly the other part of me to survive until i die.. i feel that we are apart from each other although im sitting beside of you or even in front of your nose.. forgotten and to be forget of me really test me to have my live with you..  i will try my best, please let me have a good impression and respect of all of you..

sorry for sometime i forget u, i hope i wouldn't have it again.. i know what the feel being forgotten by somebody..

thanks for everything people!!!

sy xpernah kate sy benci dy and he's just inspired me......

NEVER SAY NEVER - JUSTIN BIEBER ft JSMITH

See I never thought that I could walk through fire.
I never thought that I could take the burn.
I never had the strength to take it higher,
Until I reached the point of no return.

And there's just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
It's my destiny.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up up up,
And never say never.

I never thought I could feel this power.
I never thought that I could feel this free.
I'm strong enough to climb the highest tower.
And I'm fast enough to run across the sea.

And there's just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
Cause this is my destiny.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

Here we go!
Guess who?
JSmith and Jb!
I gotcha lil bro.

I can handle him.
Hold up, aight?
I can handle him.

Now he's bigger than me,
Taller than me.
And he's older than me,
And stronger than me.
And his arms a little bit longer than me.
But he ain't on a JB song with me!

I be trying a chill
They be trying to side with the thrill.
No pun intended, was raised by the power of Will.

Like Luke with the force, when push comes to shove.
Like Cobe with the 4th, ice water with blood.

I gotta be the best, and yes
We're the flyest.
Like David and Goliath,
I conquered the giant.
So now I got the world in my hand,
I was born from two stars
So the moon's where I land.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,

And never say never.

 

abd im out, chow!!!

melupakan tidak semudah memaafkan...

aduish, mggu yg sgt menyakitkan walaupun ade kegembiraan yg menyulami mggu ni.. thnx whoever help me to survive in my own planet.. to whoever ruined it, just be prepared.. you just asking something bad from me..

usaha ak nk menjauhi zaman kegelapan ak teruji bile ujian datang bertubi-tubi.. hidup mane la yg tidak di uji.. mgkn inilah balasan ak, ak kne terime.. menjadi yang terbaik bukan lah mudah, menjadi terbalik juga tidak susah.. dunia ni pun bulat, xsemue bahagian akan dapat cahaya matahari dalam sesuatu mase dan xsemue bahagian akan mengalami kegelapan.. korang atau ak xselalu ny tidak bernasib baik...

kenape la perlu ak lalui semue.. orang lain dh lalui kot??!! ak cube berikan yg terbaik utk orang sekeliling ak.. ak cube memaafkan atas ape yg orang dh buat pada ak, tp melupakan tidak semudah memaafkan.. mgkn korang boleh agak what im going to talk about.. my life is just only be around you kn.. xjauh ak menyimpang, kat situ juge.. klau saling nak menyalahkan sampai bile xsudah.. ak cube bersabar sebagaimana orang lain cube bersabar dengan ak.. tp ade ke orang lain bersabar dgn ak.. harap ny ade, thats why ak mgkn masih buleh bersabar dgn korang..

facing a double face people is hard for me, and it is hard for you too, to have me with my double face.. whatever it take life must go on..  ak berpegang pada pembalasan atas ape sahaje perbuatan yg telah dibuat.. Allah akan balas segala perbuatan kite.. yang baik mahupun yg buruk.. Allah tahu cara nk balas, Dia yg maha kuasa.. setiap ape yg berlaku ak terime.. sebab dy mesti ade sebab ny..

ak cube bg yg terbaik.. tp , mendahulukan orang sekeliling tidak memberi pulangan yg setimpal pada ak.. ak cume nk dihargai bukan dilupai.. mgkn ak ptt selamat kn diri sendri.. how come?? im gonna selling my fishes?? wahai cik adibah yg xsedar diri.. ko ingat klau orang lain buleh sell dyorg pny fishes ko xbuleh buat ker??? come on la.. nothing impossible dlm dunia ni kot.. cume ia terpulang kepada keizinan Allah.. when they treat you like that, u can make it for them also maa... setiap perbuatan ade pembalasan.. klau dyorg nk sell their fishesssss kau sell la ko pny fishessssss tu juge.. bg dyorg rase ko pny fishesssss.. just be aware guys, dont make me anger, i dont want to be tired becoz of u...  it goes same like you toooooooo.... mgkn korang nk ak buat mcm tu juge pada korang , thats why korang buat mcm tu kat ak kn3x.. so be ready, i will give what u really want!

the person who can only make me tired is myself... you? just keep selling your fishes every second..i try to keep avoiding u to avoid any misunderstanding.. bile korg buat hal mmg sakit la.. ak xnk trmakan sumpahan sendri.. ak bukan awek korang yg buleh bersabar dgn perangai korang dan ak bukan pakwe korang yg boleh berikan ape sahaja yg keluar dr mulut korang.. im trying to live harmony.. tp bile orang usik ak, ak akan cepat melatah mcm biase.. beware of yourself.. korang xpyh sebok nk menyebokkan org lain.. menyelamatkan diri sendri tu kadang2x menyusahkan orang lain.. blom tentu bile ko selamat, orang lain pun slamat.. xsemesti ny ape yg terbaik pada pandangan korang adalah terbaik pada orang lain juge.. u is u and them is them.. wth, as i mentioned last2x n3.. we r not same in every inch of our life.. *skarang ni ak nk mencarut la pulak, sbb last night korang hampir buat ak nak histeria.. my dark life really3x worst, dont let me have it again.. if u ask for it and u will have it.. standby bro!!!

im not perfect just like u.. im just a weak person yg cepat melatah bile diserang.. ak sentiasa berfikir mcm mane nk buat serang balas semule.. wpn ak xbrape kuat utk mmbuat serang balas, tp xmustahil ak akan membuat serang balas juge.. ayat2x ak agak poyo, tp itulah hakikat ny.. harap ny keluarga masih memberi kekuatan utk ak troskan hidup.. well, bukan korg yg sara ak.. tp kn bile somebody treat you nicely , korang xrase ke korang pn ptt buat mcm tu.. biarpun bukan pd orang yg telah layan korang dgn baik , tp mgkn pd orang lain disekeliling kamu.. omg, what im talking about.. sebok dgn orang lain, diri sendri terabai.. next time jgn terkejut bile seseorang tu berubah.. mesti ade sebab dy berubah.. renung-renungkan.. hidup xselalu ny berada dibawah..

undur diri dulu and slm...

perihal api yang membakar jiwe.....

currently baru abis makan nasi goreng pataya, alhamdulillah.. sehari suntuk xjumpe nasik...

then ???

as usual.. im gonna treat this blog to voice out anything in my life, omg!!! brani betul ko...

1st of all thnx to dr.azman sbb arrange ktorg p tanah merah + rantau panjang utk tgk lembu pastu singgah tpt shoping.. satu hari ni asik main hujan aje.. klau demam lg xtau la kali ni kne brape lame???

then, thnx to my cool daddy sbb bg peluang utk shopping sendri mencari sang kure2x utk ganti yg lame pny.. pastu jumpe mende lain plak.. jmpe bantal moo moo dgn bantal giffy the the giraffe, hajat ny nk letak dalam shiro.. xlupe, selimut biru yg brbunge-bunge telah mencuri pandangan dan duit daddy ku, huhu.. =)  then, thnx to cik fiza, cik fifah and en. khir sbb join jalan2x meredah hujan utk ber-shopping..

*bile la nk open story api berapi nih kn?? sabaq naa.. api itu masih mmbare lg nih.. xtau nk start lagu mana nih??

k, hari ni ak kecewa dgn sikap sendri sbenar ny.. api yg membara disangka buleh dikawal tidak dpt dikawal.. kemarahan membuak-buak membuat orang yg bersalah menerime percikan api yg sgt marak nih.. sorry but not sorry, klau dh salah ttp salah.. ko nak benci ak, benci la.. bukan ny ak boleh tahan ko klau nk benci ak pon.. begitu juge sebalik ny.. so kite dalam win-win situation.. ape ko nk kate, kate la.. nk report kat parent,  report la.. yg bersalah tetap bersalah.. ak cube utk kawal tp xbuleh.. ak dlm usaha mengurangkan utk menyumpah org.. xpe, u asked for it and you will have it, nasib korang la..

klau korg nak menegakkan keadilan atas kesalahn korg tu cube la, tiade jaminan utk korg mahu pun ak.. nk ak tgk 'red carpet' berdarah.. meh kite tgk darah siape yg akan tumpah, darah ko ke darah ak.. klau cakap bahasa melayu pn xreti lg, ko nk pkai bahase ape?? ak pn xphm, mcm mane korg buleh tnjk muke xbersalah korg depan ak.. ko xde kat tmpt ak, jd ko xtau situasi td mcm mane.. n ak xbrade dtempat ko tp ape yg ak tau ko ttp bersalah.. ak tau ak bkn tuhan yg menetukan kesalahan seseorang.. Allah dh bg akal, gune la, manfaat kn.. klau Allah tarik balik baru padan muke.. susah juge klau dh xde market dlm klas.. kalau ko anak dato' sekali pun, duit melimpah-limpah, ingat la mase itu emas, tp emas xbuleh membeli mase..

pk la sendri, xkn xbuleh kot.. klau orang lain buleh korban kn sesuatu utk kepentingan dan kesejahteraan bersama, xkn ko xbuleh.. rase ny mcm xbuleh kot setelah ape yg ak dh nmpk.. ok, klau xbuleh ko hidop la sorang2x.. buat assignment sendri, buat report sendri, buat presentation sendri, buat soalan test sendri, jawab sendri, tanda kertas jawapan sendri, bg gred utk diri sendri, buat konvokesyen sendri, celebrate sendri, hidup sendri, mati sendri, tanam diri sendiri, bace talkin utk diri sendri.. boleh x?? buat la ape ko nk buat..

betul la kot teori yg ak prnh pk dulu2x.. teori ni ak nk simpan dalam hati ak yg hitam, kering, lg berapi nih.. nobody perfect but practice make perfect.. ak sedar ak xsecemerlang kamoo, ak cube nk puas kn hati orang lain.. nk jage hati orang lain.. memberi dan teros memberi tanpe dihargai malah dicaci.. huish, wth!! tp mcm mane yek korang nih?? huish, biarlah berhenti sampai sini hendak ny..siape la ak nk tegur korang kn... hidup sendri pun di awang-awangan... omg!!! ape ak merepek nih.. smpai bile pn x abis..

k la, korang nk buat ape ikut suke korang la..  klau ak buat salah pun ak akan dibenci.. masing2x dh tau kesan atas tindakan yg korang buat.. pandai2x la menilai sendri.. mgkn ape yg ak predict ni salah same skali.. sbb ak kn xcemerlang.... kmungkinan ak utk membuat jangkaan dan andaian itu sngt tinggi.. xpe, ak akan sentiase cube memperbaiki diri sendri.. klau ak buat salah tegor je.. tp klau xnk xpe, mgkn xde effect ape2x kat korang.. tp ak akan tros menggile klau perkare ni berulang.. bukan skali dua.. tgk!! ak dh membebel mcm dr. aziz pulak.. esk nk ngadap dy nih?! mate dh mcm pkai google dh.. ngantok gile, brape lame dok atas bas..


smoge Allah tabah kn hati ak utk meneroskan kehidupan ak wpun  di planet ak sendri..

xsedar diri part 1..

hmmmm, jgn kate orang..

tgk diri ko sendri.. jgn terus-terusan mengungkit dan mengungkit.. lihat sekeliling, patut ke ko bersuare dgn segale yg ko dh dpt?? klau nk something to be perfect, you should be the perfect one first.. then you can keep asking anything.. nobody perfect la! keep treating like a stranger is hurting me.. you dont have the ability like them la adiba sawari.. they are different, totally different from you so keep quite2x at your place.. bersyukur dgn ape yg ade.. ak cube jd terbaik tp yg jd terbalik pulak.. tp xpe, trime seadany.. xde dua orang yg same dlm dunia nih.. mereka terbaik, ko terbalik.. xmustahil ko jd mcm nih.. xpe, biar la dyorg tu.. dunia oh dunia..

ak lebih suke menyelami dunia luar tanpa menyedarkan diri yg ak kne survive in my own planet.. wth, i really feel like a stranger. 'im the danger stranger'.. thats why la people keep avoiding from you la adiba and it is imposible for me to avoiding you, let you down, let you to be suffered because im learning from you.. you all teach me and applied it to you and now you can know how it work on you.. dont be anger, hidup xslalu ny dibawah.. ak nk gak naik atas.. sy nk menikmati dunia yg smentare but still remind to myself that Allah keep looking on me.. living on your (not me) own world like living in a box.. less thing you know.. and when you need to put yourself out from the box, i really hope u can make it.. adib, adibah, nur adibah!!! bangun lah.. ko bukan terbaik sampai ko nk banding kan diri ko dgn orang lain.. *ni bukan kali pertame ak sedar diri (tp sbenar ny masih xsedarkn diri)... huh, it almost subuh.. i wanna have a rest..

chow!

you are selling the fishes but you doesnt knew it...

sometime we feel nothing when we at the some places with lots of people surround us.. but watch-out of people behind you.. even there is your friends.. good10x friends.. even you trust them.. or even you knew that they dont have any bad intention.. personally i dont trust people around me.. even they really3x dont have any bad intention.. but usually i will see double-face person.. they will keep stay behind me and have some benefits from me.. then, if they cant get anything good from me, they threat me like a strangers.. keep avoiding me..i  just wanna be good to you and myself.. wth!! go to hell la people like this.. im giving. giving and giving then i got nothing and lost so much thing ade la.. so, it is not possible for me to be cruel to people around me.. keep showing your double face or you may multiply your face until it become 'talam' face.. i dont care!! people like this should be throw in 'telaga'.. if im like this, just throw me if u can.. how come this can happen.. really hate this situation..

i wanna have good life.. reaching fed-up stage will make me tired and tired.. how can i live by keep being good to other people but people dont care about me? sometime, could you spend something for other people?? not only you can get something from them.. so that, i want to be cruel and cruel when needed until the end of my life.. hey people!! when somebody treat you nicely, how come you cant treat them nice tooo?? lets have win-win situation.. nobody will lose anything.. i must got my punishment at this moment.. but i dont know when i do something wrong.. but thas ok, Allah is almighty and i must accept it.. to people out there, if im not treat you nicely, you should now what you have done to me.. what i knew is you and i are totally different from any inch..

Utusan Malaysia Online - Hiburan

Utusan Malaysia Online - Hiburan

they inspired me to still survive in my own 'planet'.. study is all about, ilmu saje yg akan membezakan kite dgn individu lain.. ilmu pelita hidup, jgn sia-sia kn peluang yg ade.. let the world have their word, talking anything.. mereka adalah mereka dan aku adalah aku..

finally i've got the magazine!!!

huh! akhir ny ak jumpe n bli tros....

selepas lbih kurang 4 hari membuat sesi jelajah ke kedai2x buku sekitar gong badak, akhir ny dpt juge majalah e-pop isu 19 cover page dy geng big bang... dlm dy ade n3 pasal 2ne1 juge.. ske100x...

kali ni kluar dgn member kolej, cik ana.. dh lame xlepak same dy n hari ni hasrat trcapai.. mcm2x ktorg syer sambil makan kat mcd.. ak makan set  mc-chicken + cornetto sundae chocolate tp dy mkn strawberry sundae dgn fries saje (dy dh lunch dulu).. tp tu la lunch ak, asal ny janji pkul 12 td, tp fasi dy ajak dy p mkn plak lps abis klas ko-ko dy.. pastu dy p 'parkson' (hock kee seng) pulak sorang2x.. lastly slps berbalas-balas sms, ktorg decide nk p mcd sbb ak x lunch lg.. n i have my lunch @ about 4 pm, sgt la lewat.. abis makan singgah giant lerrr...

as usual, wpn xde barang yg urgent nk bli tp nk p juge (*siap bw my green bag lg tuuuuu).. so, p la merayap.. dh nk blik tu baru tringat yg ak xsinggah pun kedai majalah yg slalu ak singgah klau p giant tu.. actually i like reading but bukan heavy material mcm novel yg tebal mcm bantal or buku teks yg serabut mcm yellow pages tu.. tp ak tringin nk bace ensiklopedia n klau boleh nk ade at least 5 set pastu buat library sendri kat rumah.. tp nasib baik masih ingat nk p, pastu tros serang shelf tempat slalu dy display majalah yg ak cari bagai nk giler tu.. slalu ny dila (my sis) yg tersadai kat situ, kali ni ak plak datang menyerang..

skali imbas je ak dh nmpk buku tu, xtrdaye menahan senyum ak.. cik ana dh suspek something.. dy dh agak, demam k-pop dh melanda jiwa ak sejak sem lepas lg.. dy senyum2x aje.. n ak tros sambar majalah tu.. tgk mcm xde orang bli je.. raseny dy baru letak kot kat shelf tu.. sbb dh 2 kali ak p mmg xde.. bli dh nmpk ak pegang n tros buat calling kat zarith n my bro.. finally ak grab skali 3 n tros bayar.. member sbelah x sangke kot.. hahahaha... alhamdulillah, selamat dtangan ak..

huhu, blik hostel inn tros study majalah tu skejap.. klau x mesti xtenang.. ape pn thnx to cik ana sbb sudi luang mase.. ak pn buleh tahan bz juge mcm dy.. lame xborak2x dgn dy.. psl kwn kolej, psl biznes, psl nk blik kl, psl krete, psl carik psl, psl ntah ape ntah lg.. tq 100x!!

k la, its time to study wpn kpale dh melayang ntah p mane.. tp kne cube gak, klau x rugi.. slm and adios!!!

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huh, lame x menaip kat cni.. lame gak xmengarut..

currently agak stress dgn marathon test yg mendatang.. huh, ak mmg akan jd gile skejap bile mikir kn test yg brderet tu.. pasal bende ni jugak yg menyebabkn ak demam dekat 2 minggu.. sbb dh dpt tau agak awal yg ktorg akn buat marathon lg skali.. bile bende ni dtg mule la kpale otak ni kate dh 'fed-up' nk study la, nk surrender la, ape la... pastu ko dok lg kat planet tu!! wth!! xpaham btol, ape pn xboleh (tagline mr. jeneral-penaja ak pny pengajian a.k.a daddy cool)...

dulu sebok kate nk angkat kaki, tp dok lg kat planet tu.. mmg btul ak klau buleh mmg nak lari, tp kat mane lg ak nk lari.. unisza je nk amek ak smbung study.. ko nk keje?? brape sen la ko dpt?? hmmmm, masih degil nk troskn hidup kat planet tu... sedar ke x ak nih?? do u really deserve to join them??? omg... ak mcm alien sudaaaaah... mmg ak xbrape nk perform dlm planet tu, im totally different among them.. thats why la im the alien in the class.. slalu tertinggal dan ditinggalkan, so ak pn meninggalkan lah (dont ask me why, u knew the answer).. ak xkesah, i deserved to get all that.. btw, i hate science very well since i knew the word 'science'.. so maaf kn ak klau ak dh menjatuhkan name planet korang.. ak xsanggup sbenar ny  nk biskn sisa2x hidup kat planet tu tp ak nk troskn juge..

tp stiap orang ade rezki masing2x.. ak xsalahkn sesape klau korang can perform very2x well pastu dpt sponsorship.. itu kelemahan ak bile join planet nih.. klau semue orang sama, xbest la.. x adventure kn3x!!! so, smentare ade yg sanggup tanggung ak study ak akan tros kn atas permintaan dan harapan mereka dan mase depan ak.. xsalah klau study bukan atas tajaan @ pinjaman tp gune duit mak dgn ayah.. ade rezki gune la, klau Allah tarik balik baru tau!! bg ak ni isu sensitip.. xpyh la nk highlight 1 planet, kemudahan yg ak dpt ni atas usaha keras mak dgn ayah membanting tulang mase besar kn ktorg dulu.. dyorg keje, keje dan keje.. ak bersyukur ade yg sudi menaja ak pny diploma, bkn mak dgn ayah (pihak MARA), so ringan la ckit beban mak dgn ayah.. dh seme adik-beradik masih belajar.. rezki anak2x la kate kn.. 

korg ingat best ke bile bangun pagi nk p skola mak yg kelam kabut siap kn semue.. ayah dh p keje awal2x.. ktorg kluar p skola mak pn kluar skali p keje.. kadang2x tu bile dh balik skola, mak pn xblik lg.. huh, rumah tu mcm tmpt transit je.. pg p skola, tgh hari blik pastu siap nk p sambung skola petang plak, malam ngaji, xpun p tuisyen, blik dh penat tros tdo.. w/end ade klas ko-ko.. dlm sehari brape jam je dpt tgk muke dyorg nih.. bile dh besar sambung study, masing2x dpt offer jaoh2x.. hmmmm, ingat kamu dalam doaku saje la... nk balik shah alam laaaa.. wpn ak xsuke pilihan dyorg tp ak nak dan akan troskn.. xkn nk jd anak yg xkenang budi.. gile?? masok neraka nnt...

rase ny duit belanje korang lg bnyk kot??? tp jgn la saving sgt.. utk mendapat lebih ak xbuleh mgharap kat mak dgn ayah.. syukur ade duit makan.. so ak ade inisiatif sendri utk dpt kn lebih.. pandai2x la carik peluang utk carik duit lebih.. ikat perot ckit utk buat modal meniage.. alhamdulillah family support perjuangan and dr segi financial ckit, and dyorg xmarah asal jgn lupe tanggungjawab kat planet tu sudah.. ak jumpe dah peluang tu, and ak dpt ape yg ak nk.. manfaat kn skill yg lame trpendam, tp jgn la banding kn pulak, setiap orang ade kelebihan masing2x.. cari dan manfaat kn laaaa... bnykkn memberi pastu insyaAllah, Allah akan balas.. lebih bnyk kite memberi lebih bnyk kite akan menerima.. bile korang terlalu kedekut, xmustahil Allah pun akan berkedekut dgn korang.. ingat, bukan korang je yg boleh ber-kedekut.. ak syukur sgt rezki ak xputus.. klau kite nk 'memberi', mghrp utk dibalas tu xsalah.. tp jgn terlalu mgharap utk dibalas.. pastu ungkit kat merate-rate.. ikhlas kn diri.. klau asik nk mengungkit Allah pun xsuke kot??  insyaAllah rezki xputus.. bkn nk bangge diri, rase ny ade betul ny..try la!! =)

ak mgharap kn Allah tetap kn hati ak utk trime segale ny.. biar pun ditinggalkan mahupun dilupakan kadang2x terabai, ak akan tros tetap kn hati tros kn perjalanan hidup yg ak rase mmg utk ak.. wpn pahit ak mamah juge.. hidup xselalu ny dibawah.. ak dh merase mcm mane rase down giler bile result hancur mcm 'mash feed' (mknn ayam- blaja dlm klas feed and feeding).. tp lepas berjaya selepas kejatuhan baru lah dinamakan kejayaan.. yang 'di atas', kamu xkn slalu bernasib baik, Allah maha kaya..

so, sampai sini je la ak mengarut.. esk nk ngadap paper agrostology paper dr. izham yg dtg dr jauh, pit-stop ke-2 selepas test ko-ko badminton dlm kejohanan marathon kali ke-2 semester 4 nih.. wish me all d best.. doa kn segala ilmu yg ak study berkesan dan dpt di-apply mase test and sepanjang ak meneroskan hidup yg penuh liku-liku, kemarau, onak dan duri, ombak dan badai, xlupe tsunami yg melanda di planet ni.. huh, panjang ny.. k, may u have a nice day dgn hati yg terbuke!! chow and salam....