perihal api yang membakar jiwe.....

currently baru abis makan nasi goreng pataya, alhamdulillah.. sehari suntuk xjumpe nasik...

then ???

as usual.. im gonna treat this blog to voice out anything in my life, omg!!! brani betul ko...

1st of all thnx to dr.azman sbb arrange ktorg p tanah merah + rantau panjang utk tgk lembu pastu singgah tpt shoping.. satu hari ni asik main hujan aje.. klau demam lg xtau la kali ni kne brape lame???

then, thnx to my cool daddy sbb bg peluang utk shopping sendri mencari sang kure2x utk ganti yg lame pny.. pastu jumpe mende lain plak.. jmpe bantal moo moo dgn bantal giffy the the giraffe, hajat ny nk letak dalam shiro.. xlupe, selimut biru yg brbunge-bunge telah mencuri pandangan dan duit daddy ku, huhu.. =)  then, thnx to cik fiza, cik fifah and en. khir sbb join jalan2x meredah hujan utk ber-shopping..

*bile la nk open story api berapi nih kn?? sabaq naa.. api itu masih mmbare lg nih.. xtau nk start lagu mana nih??

k, hari ni ak kecewa dgn sikap sendri sbenar ny.. api yg membara disangka buleh dikawal tidak dpt dikawal.. kemarahan membuak-buak membuat orang yg bersalah menerime percikan api yg sgt marak nih.. sorry but not sorry, klau dh salah ttp salah.. ko nak benci ak, benci la.. bukan ny ak boleh tahan ko klau nk benci ak pon.. begitu juge sebalik ny.. so kite dalam win-win situation.. ape ko nk kate, kate la.. nk report kat parent,  report la.. yg bersalah tetap bersalah.. ak cube utk kawal tp xbuleh.. ak dlm usaha mengurangkan utk menyumpah org.. xpe, u asked for it and you will have it, nasib korang la..

klau korg nak menegakkan keadilan atas kesalahn korg tu cube la, tiade jaminan utk korg mahu pun ak.. nk ak tgk 'red carpet' berdarah.. meh kite tgk darah siape yg akan tumpah, darah ko ke darah ak.. klau cakap bahasa melayu pn xreti lg, ko nk pkai bahase ape?? ak pn xphm, mcm mane korg buleh tnjk muke xbersalah korg depan ak.. ko xde kat tmpt ak, jd ko xtau situasi td mcm mane.. n ak xbrade dtempat ko tp ape yg ak tau ko ttp bersalah.. ak tau ak bkn tuhan yg menetukan kesalahan seseorang.. Allah dh bg akal, gune la, manfaat kn.. klau Allah tarik balik baru padan muke.. susah juge klau dh xde market dlm klas.. kalau ko anak dato' sekali pun, duit melimpah-limpah, ingat la mase itu emas, tp emas xbuleh membeli mase..

pk la sendri, xkn xbuleh kot.. klau orang lain buleh korban kn sesuatu utk kepentingan dan kesejahteraan bersama, xkn ko xbuleh.. rase ny mcm xbuleh kot setelah ape yg ak dh nmpk.. ok, klau xbuleh ko hidop la sorang2x.. buat assignment sendri, buat report sendri, buat presentation sendri, buat soalan test sendri, jawab sendri, tanda kertas jawapan sendri, bg gred utk diri sendri, buat konvokesyen sendri, celebrate sendri, hidup sendri, mati sendri, tanam diri sendiri, bace talkin utk diri sendri.. boleh x?? buat la ape ko nk buat..

betul la kot teori yg ak prnh pk dulu2x.. teori ni ak nk simpan dalam hati ak yg hitam, kering, lg berapi nih.. nobody perfect but practice make perfect.. ak sedar ak xsecemerlang kamoo, ak cube nk puas kn hati orang lain.. nk jage hati orang lain.. memberi dan teros memberi tanpe dihargai malah dicaci.. huish, wth!! tp mcm mane yek korang nih?? huish, biarlah berhenti sampai sini hendak ny..siape la ak nk tegur korang kn... hidup sendri pun di awang-awangan... omg!!! ape ak merepek nih.. smpai bile pn x abis..

k la, korang nk buat ape ikut suke korang la..  klau ak buat salah pun ak akan dibenci.. masing2x dh tau kesan atas tindakan yg korang buat.. pandai2x la menilai sendri.. mgkn ape yg ak predict ni salah same skali.. sbb ak kn xcemerlang.... kmungkinan ak utk membuat jangkaan dan andaian itu sngt tinggi.. xpe, ak akan sentiase cube memperbaiki diri sendri.. klau ak buat salah tegor je.. tp klau xnk xpe, mgkn xde effect ape2x kat korang.. tp ak akan tros menggile klau perkare ni berulang.. bukan skali dua.. tgk!! ak dh membebel mcm dr. aziz pulak.. esk nk ngadap dy nih?! mate dh mcm pkai google dh.. ngantok gile, brape lame dok atas bas..


smoge Allah tabah kn hati ak utk meneroskan kehidupan ak wpun  di planet ak sendri..

practical class - day 2..

try to have this entry in english, again...

about 45minutes ago, i've just finished watching AJL25, the award show that i wouldnt let myself missed in my life.. really?! and the result - ana raffali have been chosen as the winner.. congratulation to her although im not reaaly happy about that.. but who im to change the decision.. i really perhaps that faizal tahir will be the winner with selamat malam song, huhu.. but if faizal cant make it, my second choice is yuna with cinta sempurna song..

wth! what im talking about just now.. based on the title i should make an entry about my practical class at jeragau.. far away from 'my beloved kusza'.. it is about an hour from kusza.. ok, just go through the days that i've go through..

it start with beef cattle production class.. we need to study about part of cattle body.. the night before the practical in the farm, dr. azman has shortly make us to revised what we have learnt during last semester.. omg, thats a lot of things need to be recall in an hour.. in the next morning we need to have the TPR practical.. try to have cattle body temperature, heart beat and respiration rate.. we also need to check rumination in the cattle.. after finished it, suddenly he want to us draw a cattle.. huhhu, can i make it under the hut?! and i've made it.. just sketching it and im done..

the next day, which is today.. i've my agrostology practical class with dr. izham.. we need to find and identify some pastures use in animal feeding.. huhhu, thats a lots of them!! although at the beginning dr. izham said that we only need to have 2 sp from poacea family and 2 sp from leguminosae family, but at the end we have brought a bunch of them!! (*abis miang2x tgn ak)... after that we turn back to the lecture room and have another mission which is identify and do some sketches of them.. what a long time im not drawing and facing a lots of plant to study since my dipl study in horticulture.. thanx to my team because make it happen.. i really appreciate it..

in the evening  i have some discussion with my feed and feeding group, after that with my attachment group.. look like such a busy student, but the real thing, it is not.. then, in the night i with the others classmate together-gether watch AJL25 as i mentioned above.. before start to have this entry, we celebrate maya's birthday.. just thrown some powder on her, and we turn to our room.. hope she will have more excitement on her life.. being 21 is best!! wahaha, im turning 23 this year.. what a big number.. huhu, may i succes in my life and making more money!! huish, who is having her bday?! me @ maya, omg.. no matter what, life must go on.. let ana raffali with her winning and maya with her new age number and with hope and my dream to be a billionaire.. wahahaha!! what a wonderful life..

k, i want to make a leave, may u have a nice day!! slm...

the pressure is always behind of u....

huh! ak rse naik je f4 ak dh start tension2x.. lg2 ak xsuke skola tu, ak xsuke course tu, xsuke baju outing dy ape2 je kat sane ak xsuke smp bile2x.. ak study camne pn xmasuk gak.. mse skola kat s.alam ok je.. ak siap boleh p camping, kawat, lawatan, mrayap, ape ntah lg.. xde la sterok result ak mse f4 dan keatas... so ak bt conclusion tekanan mnyebabkan performance ak jatuh!! J.A.T.U.H...!! tergolek-golek... smp la skarang, ak sgt tertekan..

mse dipl masih tension, tp ade something yg me'reduce' kn tahap tension.. something that i like.. tp side dishes dy mmg agak men'tension' kn ak...

tp ak masih meneruskan kehidupan, sbb ak pegang 'KITE XSEMESTI NY AKAN DPT APE YG KITE NAK'!! SO, LIFE MUST GO ON.. dear my family,my friends, my dekan, my ketue jabatan, my lecturerssss, my teachersssssss, my sedare-mare, my jiran tetangge,  sy sedang cube sedaya yg upaya utk meneruskan hidup ini.. hrp phm... tp korg mesti kate 'xkan nk phm awak sorg je, awak pn kne phm org lain juge.... so, kate la ape nk dkate.... ;(

keje smp bile pn x abis, so layan je... k, chow!! nk tdo, sgt ngantok...