perihal api yang membakar jiwe.....

currently baru abis makan nasi goreng pataya, alhamdulillah.. sehari suntuk xjumpe nasik...

then ???

as usual.. im gonna treat this blog to voice out anything in my life, omg!!! brani betul ko...

1st of all thnx to dr.azman sbb arrange ktorg p tanah merah + rantau panjang utk tgk lembu pastu singgah tpt shoping.. satu hari ni asik main hujan aje.. klau demam lg xtau la kali ni kne brape lame???

then, thnx to my cool daddy sbb bg peluang utk shopping sendri mencari sang kure2x utk ganti yg lame pny.. pastu jumpe mende lain plak.. jmpe bantal moo moo dgn bantal giffy the the giraffe, hajat ny nk letak dalam shiro.. xlupe, selimut biru yg brbunge-bunge telah mencuri pandangan dan duit daddy ku, huhu.. =)  then, thnx to cik fiza, cik fifah and en. khir sbb join jalan2x meredah hujan utk ber-shopping..

*bile la nk open story api berapi nih kn?? sabaq naa.. api itu masih mmbare lg nih.. xtau nk start lagu mana nih??

k, hari ni ak kecewa dgn sikap sendri sbenar ny.. api yg membara disangka buleh dikawal tidak dpt dikawal.. kemarahan membuak-buak membuat orang yg bersalah menerime percikan api yg sgt marak nih.. sorry but not sorry, klau dh salah ttp salah.. ko nak benci ak, benci la.. bukan ny ak boleh tahan ko klau nk benci ak pon.. begitu juge sebalik ny.. so kite dalam win-win situation.. ape ko nk kate, kate la.. nk report kat parent,  report la.. yg bersalah tetap bersalah.. ak cube utk kawal tp xbuleh.. ak dlm usaha mengurangkan utk menyumpah org.. xpe, u asked for it and you will have it, nasib korang la..

klau korg nak menegakkan keadilan atas kesalahn korg tu cube la, tiade jaminan utk korg mahu pun ak.. nk ak tgk 'red carpet' berdarah.. meh kite tgk darah siape yg akan tumpah, darah ko ke darah ak.. klau cakap bahasa melayu pn xreti lg, ko nk pkai bahase ape?? ak pn xphm, mcm mane korg buleh tnjk muke xbersalah korg depan ak.. ko xde kat tmpt ak, jd ko xtau situasi td mcm mane.. n ak xbrade dtempat ko tp ape yg ak tau ko ttp bersalah.. ak tau ak bkn tuhan yg menetukan kesalahan seseorang.. Allah dh bg akal, gune la, manfaat kn.. klau Allah tarik balik baru padan muke.. susah juge klau dh xde market dlm klas.. kalau ko anak dato' sekali pun, duit melimpah-limpah, ingat la mase itu emas, tp emas xbuleh membeli mase..

pk la sendri, xkn xbuleh kot.. klau orang lain buleh korban kn sesuatu utk kepentingan dan kesejahteraan bersama, xkn ko xbuleh.. rase ny mcm xbuleh kot setelah ape yg ak dh nmpk.. ok, klau xbuleh ko hidop la sorang2x.. buat assignment sendri, buat report sendri, buat presentation sendri, buat soalan test sendri, jawab sendri, tanda kertas jawapan sendri, bg gred utk diri sendri, buat konvokesyen sendri, celebrate sendri, hidup sendri, mati sendri, tanam diri sendiri, bace talkin utk diri sendri.. boleh x?? buat la ape ko nk buat..

betul la kot teori yg ak prnh pk dulu2x.. teori ni ak nk simpan dalam hati ak yg hitam, kering, lg berapi nih.. nobody perfect but practice make perfect.. ak sedar ak xsecemerlang kamoo, ak cube nk puas kn hati orang lain.. nk jage hati orang lain.. memberi dan teros memberi tanpe dihargai malah dicaci.. huish, wth!! tp mcm mane yek korang nih?? huish, biarlah berhenti sampai sini hendak ny..siape la ak nk tegur korang kn... hidup sendri pun di awang-awangan... omg!!! ape ak merepek nih.. smpai bile pn x abis..

k la, korang nk buat ape ikut suke korang la..  klau ak buat salah pun ak akan dibenci.. masing2x dh tau kesan atas tindakan yg korang buat.. pandai2x la menilai sendri.. mgkn ape yg ak predict ni salah same skali.. sbb ak kn xcemerlang.... kmungkinan ak utk membuat jangkaan dan andaian itu sngt tinggi.. xpe, ak akan sentiase cube memperbaiki diri sendri.. klau ak buat salah tegor je.. tp klau xnk xpe, mgkn xde effect ape2x kat korang.. tp ak akan tros menggile klau perkare ni berulang.. bukan skali dua.. tgk!! ak dh membebel mcm dr. aziz pulak.. esk nk ngadap dy nih?! mate dh mcm pkai google dh.. ngantok gile, brape lame dok atas bas..


smoge Allah tabah kn hati ak utk meneroskan kehidupan ak wpun  di planet ak sendri..

xsedar diri part 1..

hmmmm, jgn kate orang..

tgk diri ko sendri.. jgn terus-terusan mengungkit dan mengungkit.. lihat sekeliling, patut ke ko bersuare dgn segale yg ko dh dpt?? klau nk something to be perfect, you should be the perfect one first.. then you can keep asking anything.. nobody perfect la! keep treating like a stranger is hurting me.. you dont have the ability like them la adiba sawari.. they are different, totally different from you so keep quite2x at your place.. bersyukur dgn ape yg ade.. ak cube jd terbaik tp yg jd terbalik pulak.. tp xpe, trime seadany.. xde dua orang yg same dlm dunia nih.. mereka terbaik, ko terbalik.. xmustahil ko jd mcm nih.. xpe, biar la dyorg tu.. dunia oh dunia..

ak lebih suke menyelami dunia luar tanpa menyedarkan diri yg ak kne survive in my own planet.. wth, i really feel like a stranger. 'im the danger stranger'.. thats why la people keep avoiding from you la adiba and it is imposible for me to avoiding you, let you down, let you to be suffered because im learning from you.. you all teach me and applied it to you and now you can know how it work on you.. dont be anger, hidup xslalu ny dibawah.. ak nk gak naik atas.. sy nk menikmati dunia yg smentare but still remind to myself that Allah keep looking on me.. living on your (not me) own world like living in a box.. less thing you know.. and when you need to put yourself out from the box, i really hope u can make it.. adib, adibah, nur adibah!!! bangun lah.. ko bukan terbaik sampai ko nk banding kan diri ko dgn orang lain.. *ni bukan kali pertame ak sedar diri (tp sbenar ny masih xsedarkn diri)... huh, it almost subuh.. i wanna have a rest..

chow!

you are selling the fishes but you doesnt knew it...

sometime we feel nothing when we at the some places with lots of people surround us.. but watch-out of people behind you.. even there is your friends.. good10x friends.. even you trust them.. or even you knew that they dont have any bad intention.. personally i dont trust people around me.. even they really3x dont have any bad intention.. but usually i will see double-face person.. they will keep stay behind me and have some benefits from me.. then, if they cant get anything good from me, they threat me like a strangers.. keep avoiding me..i  just wanna be good to you and myself.. wth!! go to hell la people like this.. im giving. giving and giving then i got nothing and lost so much thing ade la.. so, it is not possible for me to be cruel to people around me.. keep showing your double face or you may multiply your face until it become 'talam' face.. i dont care!! people like this should be throw in 'telaga'.. if im like this, just throw me if u can.. how come this can happen.. really hate this situation..

i wanna have good life.. reaching fed-up stage will make me tired and tired.. how can i live by keep being good to other people but people dont care about me? sometime, could you spend something for other people?? not only you can get something from them.. so that, i want to be cruel and cruel when needed until the end of my life.. hey people!! when somebody treat you nicely, how come you cant treat them nice tooo?? lets have win-win situation.. nobody will lose anything.. i must got my punishment at this moment.. but i dont know when i do something wrong.. but thas ok, Allah is almighty and i must accept it.. to people out there, if im not treat you nicely, you should now what you have done to me.. what i knew is you and i are totally different from any inch..